My house burned down and taught me something radical about rest.

I don't mean the kind of rest you earn after a 12-hour day. I mean the kind that saves your life when everything else fails.

“For decades, I lived on what I call the "stress hit." My nervous system had been on high alert since childhood, running on adrenaline and cortisol like rocket fuel. I thought this was normal. I thought this was strength.

My version of rest was drinking, drugs, and partying until 5am. Then getting up and doing it all again.

I was performing functionality while internally burning….”

I then flew to Bhutan, the land of the thunder dragon & the only country in the world that measures its success on gross national happiness over anything else. I had the most exquisite week with my mum where we explored ancient temples, meditated & got blessings from monks (my favourite one being with a large, bronze penis in the temple of the divine madman)

Cacao was used in ritual and ceremony by our Mesoamerican ancestors & was considered sacred. It is believed that if consumed in a pure form you will receive support & messages from the Cacao Spirit.⁠